You may be wondering where I've been for the last few months or not, but I'm about to share with you the research I've been doing on compulsive overeating. When I last left you I was down ten pounds after having healthy food delivered to me for a month. It worked great, but, I must say I got bored with the 'gourmet food'. I just like simple food! You know, burgers, fries, steaks, fish, veggies....candy, cakes, cookies, ice cream....
Not wanting to gain the weight back, I did what I said I'd never do again. I went back to Weightwatchers. On Weightwatchers, one can eat what they want in moderation, and by counting points.....Easy! I like it! But once again, for the 28th time, after a few short weeks, it wasn't working for me. I wanted more, I stopped diligently counting, and I didn't find time for the meetings. So it was Sayonara Weightwatchers with me wishing I had bought stock in it years ago.
It probably didn't help that I had company all summer. My parents came to visit for six weeks, and then my nephew, and my brother, and the house was full, and the refrigerator was stocked full of things I shouldn't be eating, because, well, they're not compulsive eaters, so why should they have to suffer?
Why can I take care of everyone else, but not myself?
Slowly, as I began to eat 'my way' again, the ten pounds came back on. If I'm not going to change my lifestyle, then I'm doomed to stay overweight or yoyo for the rest of my life. I consistently forget that my way doesn't work!
Yesterday, a friend asked me, "What're you going to do, go from program to program? And my answer is, "Yes". I have no choice. Until I get to the point where I can revere my body on my own, and not want to put any more toxins or poisons, which for me, is defined by anything made up of sugar or any other white substances, I am probably going to go from program to program.
So here I am, in a new program, once again. It's called "Lindora" in California, and in some places, "LEAN FOR LIFE". They give you structured support and guidance, and a book to follow, also called "Lean for Life" if you're interested it is available at Rite Aid or your local drugstore. I've started on 3 days of nothing but protein every two hours which gets your body in fatburning mode. I kind of like it because I'm not hungry and their protein has some good 'sweet' and 'crunchy' stuff in it.
I can tell you right now that this program will work. I will tell you that every program works if you work the program. In three days, I've already lost five pounds but that's not what's key here. What's important is that I will persevere until I get to a place in my life where I know how to take care of me. It's a life lesson. It's a hard one but one worth fighting for.
