It's the truth. Though most people feel fat even after they've lost weight, I don't feel fat. I don't even know that I am fat until I see photos or look in the mirror. Sometimes, even the mirror lies or maybe I lie to myself in the mirror.
Now today I did a Zumba class and I must say, the knees were creaking a bit...and I only made it 30 minutes...but it's a start for this Skinny Girl.
Anyway, you're probably wondering where I've been for the last few weeks after my gung ho crusade to lose weight by eating packaged foods of 12-1400 calories a day. And I did lose 10 lbs.! And then life happened again.
I had two teenagers and a child visiting me for 10 days. I carted them to the beach, to the Grove, looking for movie stars (evidently, I wasn't enough!), shopping, shopping, and more shopping, all the while trying to make sure they all ate 3 meals a day. Did you know teenagers don't eat salad? But they love chocolate!!!! I think I'm still a teenager. We got through it with me only gaining 2 lbs. but then there was Steve's (my husband) hernia surgery. Nerves, and stress, and caregiving.......and it's still going on.
So that's about two 1/2 weeks of craziness.....thank goodness it was only a 2 lb. gain! And here's the good news.....yesterday, I decided to take care of myself. I got up early, I went to the gym, and I took myself to Weightwatchers. The truth is I failed WeightWatchers the last two times I tried it, but now there is no such thing as failure. There is only moving forward, sometimes backwards, and then forward again. I'll count the facocta points....it will help me remain conscious....that's what I'm going for.
Listen, there is no end to this. It's a lifelong battle...so please try not to get annoyed or frustrated with me. This is my disease...it beats the other addictions I've had.
For now, I'm keeping my eye on the prize. Five pounds....at a time.
Stick with me and let me hear from you!!!!
